I have had to focus on self-care this week mainly because I have had a busy week, and I am also feeling tired. It may be to do with the clocks going forward, though maybe not.The reason I have been focusing on this is because I am learning to live with some of the things I don’t really like
about myself.
I don’t mean the physical things, I mean things like my anxiety, my paranoia, my deep sadness that can be overwhelming if I let it.
Rather than getting frustrated and angry with myself when these things start to creep into my head, I am learning to accept that these things are part of me and my make up. So what I need to do is work out how to take care of myself during these periods of sadness, anxiety, low self-esteem.
I do start to recognise the symptoms when these feelings are creeping in, so I start to plan and put things in place to prevent them from getting stronger. Very much like when George was a little boy, and if he wasn’t feeling quite right I would make sure I had things in place to make him feel loved and looked after, that we had things to do that I knew he enjoyed, and also make sure that we did things together and chat. These are the things that I start to put into place for
myself.
So it becomes less about getting frustrated with myself and thinking that I am weak when I am feeling sad or anxious, and more about accepting that these feelings all add to me as a whole person and taking care of myself is what is necessary during these times.
Its all about learning to deal with our own imperfections, because these are the things that make us who we are.